Tuesday, August 28, 2012
It has been exactly 1 mth since i posted. loosing the feel to post, but...i guess i just need somewhere to let it out. rawr. during this 1 mth, lots of news came to me. good and bad..i kinda lost my motivation to work and study for some reason. i tot after my results come out favourable, i would be more motivated, but, sadly, thats not the case. maybe its cos of the changes i need to adapt to in the future thats hindering me. it may nt exactly be a bad thing, but im just resistant to changes. haiz..idk..i need to get my act tgt again, but i just have no motivation. seeing bf try so hard, i also knw i have to try hard, but, why is it so difficultt!?!? y is it so difficult to get it back again? =( am i really suited for this job? is this really for me? y am i nt performing well enough? rawr
haiz..outside of work...some things have been bugging me, but i knw those things can't be rushed. sometimes i wish the ppl arnd me will understand also. i really don't need extra pressure on this la..haiz..i gt to stop emoing and be happy...if nt life will be dreadful...
haiz...somehow...this dosen't feel right? the feeling is different...why?!?