Thursday, May 31, 2012
After thinking the whole night...I still can't come to terms with it...I really dun understand...why why why?? All the answers to my questions dun seem to gel...there are so many loopholes...I juz can't accept it...am I juz supposed to hold it in all in my own?? Am I juz supposed to hold it in n juz let it hurt all alone? Haizz idk idk idk...it's really painful...love is such a complicated matter...if he really loves me...why does he hurt me again n again knowingly?? This pain..is too much for me to handle..ESP wif exam stress?? Y does he always only do wat he wants n strives to achieve everything he wants...wat about me?? He's becoming complacent..haizz..I can feel it...I feel so miserable now..I hate being in such pain..but I knw if I let him go..I will hurt alot more n will be worst off..haiz wat shld I do?? Juz continue to hurt n get used to this?? Haiz..he'll juz think I'm childish n paranoid cos he dun try n understand things from my perspective...once he sets his mind on doing sth ..he'll get upset wif anyone who gets in his way..n if I stop him..he'll be a rebellious kid n find extrmeme alternatives tat will hurt me more :'(