Saturday, February 25, 2012
haiz..sometimes i really wonder if i shldn't have chosen this path. i chose this path because i din wanna be a financial burden to my family. but now, the stress and pressure is really more than i can handle. im not that strong. i can't be strong anymore. i'm too tired.
i'm the kind of person tat will try my best in everything i do, but somehow, its just not good enough ='(
at work i try to be a good helpful to boss, to be a good junior to my senior, to be a good mentor and friend to the interns, to be a good colleugue and friend to my peers.
at home, i try to be good daughter, a good elder sister. In class, i try to be a good student, trying to study hard and pass exams. I also know i'm not a good enough gf, tats why i'm also trying my best to be a good gf, just for him, but seems like its not working
i'm so tired from being a good girl, wearing so many different masks for so many different situations. haizzz i think im snapping soon. all these is too much..really too much. so disappointed wtih myself. its only slightly more than half a year and i'm so weak and totally defeated alr ='( sick and tired of crying all the time, but it just keeps flowing, somehow...even when im sleeping...how nice...haizzz ='(
i guess, all these is not sth simply understood by others. have to go through audit life to understand..haizz