Today is such a depressing day..haiz..it just shows how unstable and lousy i am...idk...it feels like all these is too much for me..even though i keep telling myself time and again that i must hang on and can't give up, it seems like its getting too much...its reaching a point where i dun have enough strength and energy to sustain this mindset...i'm drained..really...
it sucks even more to knw that friends are leaving soon...one by one..to a place where i wish i could go..but..haiz..i knw i can't..i knw my restrictions..those places are out of bounds to me..so..whats the point of even thinking?!? haizz...idk...i'm just so affected and demoralized by all these things...
but then again, there are things to be thankful for..thankful for friends who are concerned about me..friends tat are willing to lend a helping hand and a listening ear. i really appreciate all these things...
