Saturday, October 15, 2011
Today i finally went to the adoration room again. it felt really peaceful. its been quite a long time since i really sat down and just talked to God as though he was a friend. even though i only spent quite a short time in there, it felt really good. i guess, i've been having too many doubts and fears and also lots of negative feelings. I guess, i'm at a stage where im questioning the reason behind why things happen and why is it so diffiicult a path even though it was the only door opened to me. maybe, bitter is the word to use. its been quite a long time sice i teared in the adoration room. Idk why, but yea i just teared when i was talking to God.
During mass, the communion hymn was the song i really needed to hear. It was so apt. "do not be afraid i am with you. I have called you each by name. Come and follow me, i will give you rest, i love you and you are mine" I felt really comforted when i heard this song. Its like God speaking to me. I felt so warm inside my heart even though it was freezing cold in church. I felt really comforted and encouraged. I felt as though all my problems were taken away by God. i almost teared. haha but i didnt..hehe :p anyway,im really thankful for today's experience. I really hope that i'll have the strength to carry on and hang on no matter what happens and i also pray that God will carry me in His everlasting arms through it all, because without Him, i am nothing. :D
alright...thats all for now..gtg sleep early..got a run early in the morning tmr! hope all goes well and my timing is good. hahaha shall think of my motivation all the way tmr. maybe can run faster hahaha :p