Saturday, May 14, 2011
yesterday, i went for another wyd session at holy fam...simple yet good session i must say...at least i felt more at peaceful inside of me...and of course, catching up and just talking to awesome friends just made my day all better...so..thanks alot yea...bleah...i wish i could join them for wyd..but..haizz :( i can't :( o wells..hope they'll have an awesome experience...
i kinda miss the times i was active in church...i've been feeling lost for the longest time i must say...its like so neither here nor there...mummy and daddy have been hinting me and nagging at me to go and join a church grp or sth and be involved in church all over again....but..idk...there's just this sth that keeps holding me back...idk why...haizz...whats this sth thats preventing me from taking a step forward? i feel so empty within me...its like sth is missing from my life...and sometimes...this emptiness is so suffocating...ironic hur...suffocating in emptiness...
i guess, i've sorted out my thoughts about friendships....and i really agree that friends are just passerbys in different stages of our lives...but i feel that church friends might be different....like what ppl have been telling me since i was alot younger.."friends made in church are different from those outside...these friendships can go a long long way" i really want to hold this belief, but i feel like i've drifted very far away from many of my church friends already...but i must say, i'm really fortunate to still have some friends who will still care for me and be there for me in their own way :D so...to those wonderful friends who has been there for me to try and cheer me up and listen to me rant and all...thanks alot...i really appreciate it :D :D