Monday, May 02, 2011
Thinking about it, actually God has really done a lot for me in my life. even though i've been through many difficult times in my life, i've always gotten out of it stronger, and more mature. i'm really thankful that God has always been there for me, to guide me all along, just that sometimes, i keep looking in the wrong places for Him, without even realising he's right beside me or within me. but i'm really thankful for everything so far, and i pray that he'll continue to guide me along and be with me no matter what happens..
this weekend has been quite a nice weekend spent with family, except for yesterday =( o wells...its over..shan't talk about it. But yesterday made me realise how lousy i am..haizz...and it felt terrible when i realised there's no one i can tell, because i can expect all the replies i will get, and those are not the stuffs i wanna hear, so haizz..just took all of it in on my own. it made me realise how dependent i have been on my friends. i need to learn to be more independent, learn to keep more things to myself and not tell ppl so much already. i've got to learn to take my thoughts and negative feelings in my own stride, because friends won't be there for u all the time, and it might just be a passing phase, so yea. haiz...ok shall not talk about it anymore..
anyway, i think what daddy told me today is very true. i need to learn to have a more balanced life. work, family, church, sports, social. without faith, when i face a crisis, i won't know how to handle it. i guess its true. it really got me thinking. i'm always looking and waiting for God to work sth big in my life, so much so that i take the small things he has done for me for granted. i need to learn to look at the small things he has done for me also. need to be more sensitive to those things. its not easy cos i know i'm always expecting so much, but i really got to try...got to try to just have faith even though i might be taking a step into darkness, i just need to take that leap of faith and see where God leads me.