i finally had a totally free day to spend time with myself and my family...i totally love my family ttm :D everyime i see them smile or laugh, it brings me great joy and comfort...even though work and all is tiring much, but i know im doing it for the family..that alone is enough motivation for me to hang on...now i know, how silly i was in the past, to keep thinking that my parents were bias against me and all...how silly of me to not appreciate them...but at least its not too late that i realise it now :D i think xiao mei is kinda like my reflection of how i used to be..teenage blues i guess...but im sure she'll learn to appreciate family after those blues are over...haha
hmm..abt another matter, idk why but after so long...there's still this subconscious fear in me...idk if its cos i keep running away or i refuse to let go or wat? but everytime someone says to go to THAT place...i feel scared...scared that i'll still feel sth for it or feel sth when im there...idk why but im still....haiz..yea...im lousy i know...idk is it cos what happened there left a great impression or wat...but..o wells..must find a way to get rid of those stupid feelings..o wells...
