Saturday, March 19, 2011
3 years...3 years of not saying anything and keeping quiet about it was really not easy...it hurts so bad...what kept me going was the thought that i could get it back in the future...like really soon..but with a blink of an eye...3 years flew past..and now...an indirect big fat no is wat i get...yes i agreed to give it up 3 years ago..but thats cos there were circumstances...its different now...but i guess no matter how hard for it ...its to no avail....haiz...this feeling sucks but i can't be persistant about it because i dun wanna quarrel with them about this and i guess its cos im not willing to get a substitution cos i know it'll spoil the touch....haiz.the thought of it just makes the tap start flowing :( ppl who share the passion of music and ppl who has a piano are really lucky...so appreciate it!
haiz..it reallly hurts...i know this is nt sth really very impt but its impt to me...im not good at it..but i want to be good again and even better than i ever was...but i guess once the opportunity is lost, i'll not get a 2nd chance...haizz :'(
apart from this..as tue draws closer, i become more insecure...im really worried..at first...after exams..i wanted to tell ppl im unofficially graduated..but now...i dare not..i dare not say anything....im really worried...hope everything is ok...and that i clear all my modules..i've never been so insecure and jittery about it before...or rather i only get jittery like the day before..but i've been like that for some time already..haiz..i suck...o wells :(