Tuesday, December 14, 2010
so now i'm officially 19...thanks to everyone for all the well wishes and everything else as well :D well, birthdays for me has always been very ordinary, so nth much to blog about...hehe...
hmm actually quite alot has happened recently i guess, both good and bad...lots of thoughts in my mind recently and all...i guess its too much to write all of it down or voice it out so yup...
well..one thing that has been bothering me for some time would be my spiritual life i guess..i've always been thinking of joining a youth group and starting all over again..just thinking about how much i've backslided and all scares me...i've backslided so much...and now i know why mummy and daddy have always been trying to ask me to join a church grp since i was young...without a community to journey with, its almost impossible for me to grow spiritually cos i dun have the discipline to journey alone...its not an easy road to walk....i've been thinking about it but i guess my train of thought is all wrong..i've been thinking wat i want to do so that i'll be happy and all but is that what God really wants me to do?? its been a year since i've gone for any camps or retreat...its terrible i feel terrible..i feel empty and lost..idk where to start idk how to start..haizz i really miss the nativity ppl and the times that i was there...its been forever since i saw those awesome ppl :(
haiz o wells..ok nvm i think i shan't go on and rant about other things i'm thinking about...in summary...all im feeling is lost and empty deep within...haiz :'(
scandal even though i dun wish to admit it...i miss you loads!! where are you? i want my hug!! :'(