Friday, December 31, 2010
I guess this year, just like every other year, were filled with lots of ups and downs and lots of emotions, lots of thoughts. even though it was difficult at times, i still managed to get through all of it. thanks alot to everyone who has been there for me, to listen to me, to comfort me, to encourage me and all.
hmm, lets see, beginning this year, i finally took up the courage to go back to the team. Although at first i was doubting my decision as things were abit awkward between me and the rest of them but after awhile it got better and now i can say, im glad i went back! this year with the girls has been really great! its just really really nice to see them so often and all and they always make trainings so much more bearable! thanks girls for everything :D i really really enjoyed myself at malaysia race too! i guess it was the first time and probably only time that i could go overseas with u all. i'll always rmb all these memories :D
the biggest event of the year would of course be YOG! hahaha even though at first i wasn't very happy with the position we were given and all but i guess it all turned out fine :D met many nice new friends at yog and i really enjoyed those yog days with them! hahah recording the time the buses came, how many ppl boarded and alighted and talking to the atheletes, trying to go and get as many drinks and biscuits as we can, trying to get a peep of tennis matches and all! hahaha it was totally fun!! totally miss the yog people!! hope we can meet up soon somehow!
oh and i really must thank leon for introducing me to evokx! hahaha awesome ppl!! hahaha if not for him, i wouldn't have been able to experience a choir life again. hahaha totally love practices wtih evokx! and of course, the awesome debut concert we had :D :D haha hope evokx will have a gathering soon!! i can't wait to see those peeps again!! its been soooo longgg!! i can't wait for our next project to come in!! i wanan sing sing sing sing sing with evokx!! haahhaha
hmm, actually i guess those were the major things in 2010 for me. 2010 has been the year that i quarrelled least with my family i guess hahaha and thats good :D i love them alott!!! mummy daddy est!!! i love you!! time spent with my family is always great! i just can't explain why but seeing them just makes me happy and of course, i want to make them happy too! so i'll always try to be happy in front of them and not make them worry :D
hmm idk if im right or wat but 2010 seems like to be a year where i kept questioning things, wanting to find out more about myself and other things or other ppl as well. it has been a year where i was confused and lost and felt empty many times, and whenever that happens and when im alone, my thoughts run wild, and sometimes i end up crying. this year i've cried alot, laughed alot, but i know, somewhere deep within me, i'm still very lost. there has still been many many things that i would like to do but haven't done it yet. i hope that 2011 would be a more fulfilling year :D
hmm, actually i din want to have a new year's resolution, but since this has been bugging me for such a long time, it shall be my new year's resolution. "deepen my relationship with God". by praying more, reading the bible more, and hopefully joining a church grp and get active in church again! :D
alright i guess i shall end of my last day of the year post by dedicating a thank you msg to some of my dearest friends. erm.dosen't mean i dun write for u means ur not my dearest friends ah...hahha
To God:
Dear Lord, first on the list is you! i have to thank you first! thank you for giving me life for yet another year :D thank you for being there for me during the past year. thank you for always giving me the courage to face a challenging tomorrow even though today was already difficult enough. thanks for always bringing me back to ur everlasting arms when im upset and down and lost. thanks for always comforting me, be it through my family or my friends :D thanks for the gift of family. i can't thank you enough for blessing me with such a wonderful family and for all the many blessings that u have showered upon us. Lord, i pray that in the new year to come you'll continue to be with me and my family and friends to help us in every step of the way. AMEN!
To ju and stella:
thanks for being there everyday in sch and putting up with all my nonsense ramblings about..........ya u know wat i mean hahha sorryyyy uh tat my imagination just runs wild sometimes..hahahaha :p thanks for being there to knock sense into me when its needed. thanks esp for tolerating my mood swings and all that shit...sorry if i've hurt u in any way in the past year. hope that the new year will be awesome for all of us k? its our last term in poly together already, we'll give it our best shot and finish the race well together yea :D jyjy :D love you girls loads!!
To scandal:
dear, idk what to say to you, cos we haven't seen each other in a superrrrrrrr longggggggggg timeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i already lost count how long we haven't seen each other already!!! hahhaha i miss you!!! i haven't heard ur voice in so longgggg!!! i wish i could see u soon, but i doubt so, since ur going to be busy and all :( and i guess even if u were free, u'll rather see someone else right?? humphhh haha do u smell vinegar? hahha actually i dun even know if u still read my blog and all but yea o wells i still wrote sth for u!! hahaha LOVE YA xoxo!! hahahaa and i miss u too!!
To Kor:
kor!! thanks for always being there for me, to comfort me, to encourage me, to listen and to give me advice! and thanks for all the comforting hugs too!! although we have been talking less since u had a gf but still, thanks for taking time out to talk to me esp before u had itp hahha all the times we met in sch just to listen to me rant and complain about all the nonsense and all, thanks for listening! it really means alot to me!! haha and i haven't seen u in quite awhile too !!! hahaha o wellsss ..haha have a long lasting r/s with ur girl yea :D dun bully her hor!! haahaha:p
To rf:
hey you!! hahaha i finish watching hello baby!! hahaha i so guai listen to u leh!! hahaha and i think onew is quite cute also but im not as crazy as u over them..hahhah anyway..thankks for everything!! hahahaa and u know wats the everything right? cos im too lazy to type out everything! hahaha im sure we have telepathy and u can read my mind...*sends info over* hahaaha ok u receive le right? hahaha okok good good so thank you:D hahhahaha love ya!!! (omgg im learning from u..hehe.=x)
To bestfriend:
hey, idk if ur reading this, but i still have to say it. i guess many things has happened between us in the past year. thanks for everything before we had that particular convo. actually to be honest, i kinda regretted having that convo with u cos everything between us has changed. it really feels like i've lost a good friend. i think i told u this many times already, and i'll still say it again, i wish we could be like before, but i know its impossible now. to be honest, whenever i see u flirting with her and all, i feel uneasy deep down inside even though idk why. but i guess it dosen't matter cos u won't bother about me anymore right? o wells. all i can say is, thanks for being a wonderful friend before we had tat convo! i'll really treasure all thsoe memories we had, and of course, tat few times that we hung out together alone! thanks for everything yea :D in the new year to come, i'll just try my best to put everything aside! i just want you to know that no matter what has happened between us, i won't stop caring about u and you'll always be my secret best friend, so, i'll always be here for you! u still mean alot to me...really!! all that i've said is really from my heart :D