Friday, November 26, 2010
wheeee omggg just thinking about last night still makes me high!! being on stage again felt really awesome!! i wanna sing more and more and more!! hahaha concert last night was awesome i must say!!! hahahaha it felt super super super good performing in a choir again!!! these 2 mths really renewed my passion for music and singing...it has been awesome!! really enjoyed all the practices and all and of course last night!! haha
i think my saturdays will be super free from now on for quite some time...for the past 2 mths, it has been training choir church and sometimes ah ma's hse all on my sat, now its like suddenly i'm going to be quite free...not that happy though because the thought of it just makes me feel so empty...hmm..hope we can go caroling together!!
rawr...i'm so tired from the concert last night, but i couldn't really sleep when i got home. when i lay on my bed and closed my eyes, the songs that we sang all played on loop and repeat mode in my head. i totally felt that we were still performing and all...when i woke up, it was all back to reality but adagio and sanctus and all the other songs really kept playing in my head!! hahhha i wanna sing sing sing sing sing and sing somemore!! hahah
oh oh the most amazing thing yesterday was that im super super surprised that i could sing quite properly despite having a sore throat and all...idk how my voice managed to come out but iw as surpirsed and happy :D hahha just that halfway during sanctus my throat felt super super itchy...rawrrrr so i couldn't really sing it properly halfway..but after tat it was normal again :D :D haha the only bad thing was we din take many photos yesterday =( o wells..more chances to come i hope...
Today, 26/11/2010
hmm i've been having this weird feeling since concert ended on tue! idk how to describe it but i guess, empty itself dosen't explain how im feeling. i totally can't wait for the next practice and gathering and all. it sucks to know that today is friday, and tmr is sat, but there's no practice tmr! haizz o wells..nvm i shall just try and live with it. i think this is what stella calls "post concert syndrom" hahaha
hmm MST is just round the corner and i haven't started revising anything...a few more days and its welcome to december and then soon it'll be the end of the calender year and a start of a brand new year which means i'm going to graduate soon...
hmm idk if its really post concert syndrom that i'm having thoughts about pursuing music and all or what but i really really really want to study music. haiz its an impossible dream though...i really really regreted giving up piano in year 1 cos i chose sth else...if i knew that the opportunity cost would be so much, i wouldn't have given it up...i want my piano back i want to learn more stuffs from miss yap again...i wanna practice alot alot alot alot and get better at piano!! thats what i really want to do now...its my passion!! haiz but whats done cannot be undone anymore..haizz how i wish i could go back to when i was in year 1. i would have fought harder not to have my piano sold away. i would have stretched myself more to continue to go for piano lessons!!! haizzzz o wells...all i can do now is to con'd to save money so i can go play piano more often...ok i think i've been saying that and yes, i'm trying to save money so yea. haha
honestly, idk wat im going to do after graudation. i do have options in mind, but i just kinda dun wish to step out of my comfort zone..haha sth tat i've been thinking about for the past 3 years and sth that has barely crossed my mind. its a hard choice!! o wells idk idk idk..even if i wanna embark on a whole new route/path, im afraid i dun have the courage to do so...haiz...i guess for now i need to filter all these thoughts out of my mind and just enjoy the last few mths of poly life and study hard!!
honestly, sing play piano sing play piano sing play piano sing play piano is all i wanna do now...
PS: i went for a short run just now..hahaha feels quite good when i was running until i was going to stop...totally felt nauseous and still am feeling nauseous for some reason..o wells...but thinking about it i haven't been running and feels good to run again..haha its time for me to run more and lose weight :D
haiz we barely even acknowledge each other anymore...why? is there really nth that u and i can talk about anymore? somehow it feels like i've just lost a friend..