RAWRRR I FEEL TERRIBLE!!! if only i never got myself into this shit..rawrr this cannot that cannot everything cannot...too short too long too tight too loose...not nice not pretty not suitable..rawrr kns!! i've enjoyed it thus far but today...for the very first time...the thought of "what if i never started doing this again" crossed my mind...i'm shocked at myself...how can sth like that cross my mind when its sth i've been enjoying for the past mth or so...HAIZZZ all i get is negative comments bout this...this is so annoying...this is totally the feeling when u thought everything is going well because u've found the suitable one but u come to realise that ur treasured family members think otherwise...not even a good word about it comes out from them...how to feel good about it u tell me?? HAIZZZ i think i'm being too emotional and sensitive about this whole thing..but too bad...its almost the time of the mth again so i'm like that...rawrrr haizzz totally feel like using vulgarities, but i'm controlling...haiz...yes i'm fat...whatever i wear dosen't look good on me...my butt's big..i have spare tyre..my legs are fat...i'm fat...my arms are big..WHATEVER MAN I'M SICK AND TIRED OF THIS!! its a known fact that i'm extremely busy this week and i have to at least settle this by this week...and all i get is negativity haizz where on earth do u expect me to find the time to go and find sth more suitable?? i only have thurs morning and i'm supposed to carry all my training stuffs and go and look for it?? and damn it training on thurs is sea rowing= must bring paddle= not convenient and wed ngiht i'll obviosuly be home late...HAIZ THIS IS ALL SCREWED UP...i shld have just said i cannot be a part of it!! to add on..yes $16 slipper is the most expensive i've ever bought...but i've been saying for mths that i need a new slippers and im paying it out of my own allowance...even though i'm going to be so broke this week i never even dared or never intended to ask for extra allowances...haiz maybe i really have to forgo team dinner cos i can't afford it...haiz...no time no money...i can't imagine what things will be like next week onwards...RAWRR more tired me= shorter temper= disaster at home..i sense more scoldings coming along..so i shld just go and cry myself to sleep now! BYE!!
and my baby princess..please take care of urself when u're away....worried for u leh...ur always so pampered at home..hahaa take care yea and i'll see u on sunday..hopefully i can go pick u up from the airport on sunday..hahaha take care and enjoy ur trip....i'll miss u...and i think i'll be worrying about u too..see this is how much i care about u and love u...even when u said u wanna go tampines to take neoprint with ur friends i became over protective and worried la...hahaha okok take care and have fun!! miss u loads!! and rmb to buy my nougurt for me!! hehe thanks <3
