Wednesday, October 06, 2010
with all that on my mind...i have to try not to show that i'm troubled or frustrated or unhappy etc etc..esp when i'm with ppl that i care for cos i dun want them to worry about me...which means...i've to put up a front AGAIN..esp at home or when i'm with my parents or sis or whatsoever..this is seriously frustrating...i'm no longer good at it...or rather..maybe there's so mcuh to bottle up that i feel i'll explode some time...o wells...
haiz..i feel so drifted from all my friends...no longer that close to nativity ppl or holy fam ppl..or rather..we dun even contact...haiz i guess this is enough to make me feel like i've lost so many friends..rawrr besides those ppl..there are still so many ppl that i feel i can no longer turn to...not like before..haiz...o wells...
i'll just pretend that everything is alright...i'll just stay in my corner and remain un-noticed and unimportant...it dosen't matter cos i'm used to it...o wells...
Dear Lord, please bring me through this time of emotional distress..help me to get over whatever it is and move on...help me to continue to have a more positive attitude..help me Lord...i can do nth without you...please help me to start afresh when the new sch term starts and help me to end my poly life on a good note...i trust that you'll help me through this time lord...help me to become a stronger person...
rawr..i miss someone..in times like this..i can't help but think of that certain someone...even though there's others that i miss too...but..haiz...o wells...