Sunday, July 25, 2010
suddenly it dawned upon me during mass that the signs i've asked for, God has actually given me..just that i refuse to accept the answer somehow..haiz..i think today's homily was like a slap back to reality...idk how that happened, but i just realised that actually the answers are right in front of me..or rather, it has been in front of me for a really long time, just that i kept running away...cos i wanted to think that what i feel is right and that those small little hints given or shown to me was just me being paranoid..but now..i think otherwise...rawr...
because i kept running away...it now hurts..idk why it hurts..idk why im feeling like that...but...tats just how i feel now...o wells..but since its like that and i've already decided, i'll just have to bear with it for now...stay strong ger..u are not that weak...dun let this kind of thing tear u apart and bring you down...jia you! its a battle against no one but urself!!
rawr im tired and having quite a bad headache..going to sleep soon....nitez...
haizz...it hurts...u keep appearing in my mind...o wells...i've got to stop and get those thoughts out of my head..