Sunday, May 23, 2010
o wells..all that aside..im super burnt from training today hahaha...haven't been this burnt in quite awhile..hehe =x hmm..training was tiring today....rawrr i need to get back my stamina and strength since i think im more or less recovered already, but not fully...but o wells..can't wait anymore...need to get even stronger already...rawrr...hope i can do it....doing pull ups is seriously damn demoralizing for me la...cos i suck at it..haiz..need to work even harder...
and for some reason im really super duper tired...too tired to even open my iap file and work on it....i just feel like nuah-ing...damn it la..rawrr...haizz...i shall try finish up my part during lesson tmr..rawr...stress max!! o wells....
MST's just around the corner...got to start studying reallly soon if not i'll be sooo screwed!! =( stress stress stress..but i'll manage it somehow i guess...hope so at least..o wells..
i really miss the warmth that was once felt in church!! i now feel very distant and detached from the rest of them...its like neither here nor there...haiz...o wells...i miss nativity!! nativity was really my 2nd home i guess...a place that we'll go to chill after jogging...a place where we'll all gather to study...to chat...to gossip...to slack...to have meetings...to pray together,...have sessions together...attend mass together...rawrr i really miss those times....miss those times where i could just go there, knowing there'll be ppl to hang out with...knowing that there'll be ppl for me to complain to and all..rawr...i miss seeing isa jie like 6 days a week...miss seeing scandal so often...miss seeing trudy and hanging out so frequently at her place or in church...i really really miss nativity alot...i guess its cos of the many years i've been there that made me so attached to the place...it was really my comfort zone..it wasn't easy to step out of it esp when i was forced to...as much as i really din want to, i had to...and now, seeing that the youths there are alot closer and more bonded makes me envy them alot...rawr...really really miss nativity alot..all those warm smiles and friendly faces...all thsoe ppl who will run up to you giving you hugs....rawr..really really miss the warmth alot..haiz..