Monday, May 17, 2010
i guess wat stella told me was right la...i gave myself excess stress and pressure for the project and all, and it seems like everything din hit my expectations..haiz..disappointed and frustrated i am, but whats done is done...idk wat will happen for the other projects on hand, but yea...i dare not promise my grp anything...i guess i need time to recover from this, because i guess, this has really hit me very hard. its the first time i screwed up a project so badly...haiz..sorry guys...
to my claw grp (if ur reading this):
somehow, i feel that you guys are over-reliant on me...if i dun initiate to meet up or do anything about the project, u guys also dun do anything, or rather, just leave it as it is...i admit, i was busy with my other commitments, up to the point where i did very little for the project, and i also admit its my fault that i din manage the 1 week we had well ok? so, sorry for everything..sorry if u all din get enough sleep and are falling sick. sorry if u've caught my virus and all. i know that the sucky report is my fault...the bad presentation was also my fault..everything was just my fault k? cos i din manage the grp and the time we had properly...disappointed as i am, i guess, its all too late to do anything now...so yea...all i can do is just to apologize to you guys...sorry if i've disappointed you guys...
all that aside, i had a really good weekend with the girls...congrets to the ivp crew who did really really well at the race!! and thanks to xf who accompanied me during rest time =) thanks xf for sunday esp...for making the effort to come down and accompany me, although idk if thats ur only reason for coming down la..hahaha but still..thanks thanks! i appreciate it alot! =)
i guess, seeing the girls do so well really made me regret leaving the team last time...it makes me envy them alot....it makes me wanna push even harder...hope to row with them for polite....but duno if i can though...o wells...im just going to train hard and push hard.....hopefully i can do it!!
haiz...i hope i can beceome stronger more quickly...physically, mentally, emotionally...i need to get stronger, i must get stronger...