haiz..it hasn't exactly been a good week cos i've not been feeling well...sian..monday had mc cos of heat rash...tue i was better...wed i woke up with no voice at all...wed evening i had a fever, thurs my fever got abit better, and i had a cough...and till today, my cough hasn't gone away yet..haiz..no wonder daddy's not happy at all..cos he links it all to db camp..haiz..nth i say can convince him otherwise, so i shall not bother anymore..haiz..=(
because of the above, i haven't been able to concentrate in class..and i've never felt so helpless during an audit test before la..rawr...it wasn't exactly a difficult paper, but for some reason, i had so much trouble doing it..it was seriously 1hr of torture..haiz..i suck =(
i guess..this week also made me realise that i dun like to show ppl the weaker side of me...when im in sch..i tend to put on a strong front and show that everything is fine..even though its not..its quite painful to do this, but i dun want my friends to worry thats why...rawr...even when feeling so terrible inside of me cos of the fever and rash and everything, i try to be energetic and cheerful so my dearest friends won't worry so mcuh..i guess the emotional side is pretty much the same..haiz..o wells..after so long, i guess this is just me ba..not wanting to show the weaker side to others...so sometimes, how i look may not be a true reflection of how i feel...haha o wells...im fine already or rather getting better...haha..so no worries ppl..
hmm....thanks to all those ppl who were so concerned and worried for me this week..haha sorry to have made you guys worry...esp dearest stella, and kor and rf and ju...rawrr...haha i'll try to take better care of myself k? hehe =x and and thanks stella for the panaflex thing..hehe hope it'll have some effect soon..rawr..
haiz..its damn stressful..i've got so many things to do and work on..but i like have no mood to do anything..rawr..i like want to do the last thing that i shld be doing...and that is sleep...i keep wanting to sleep..rawrr...i suck i suck =(
haiz..daddy is right after all i guess..the more into it i get, the further away i'll drift..i won't let that happen anymore...it sucks feeling so far away...when A msged me this morning..i really felt like going for it tmr, but sadly i can't and i think i won't be able to go for it for a really long time, unless the time is changed but..haiz..idk la..rawrr...getting caught in the middle of these commitments sucks..haiz...o wells..
haiz...i hate being the one thats left out, its either im really not good enough or im really not impt...its not the first time and i know it'll not be the last, cos it has happened so many times already..haiz..i just dun understand why it has to always be me all the time...haiz..o wells..no point saying so much...cos you ppl just won't understand how it feels..
haiz..i thought you promised that nth is going to change, but it seems that everything has changed ='(
