Saturday, May 22, 2010
i guess wherever i go, im always the one thats left out. just as i thought i shld be nice and spend more time with some ppl, these ppl suddenly have some wonderful plan to go out and not tell me..only to find out that they did not plan it, but just wanted to go out..how nice a reply i must say...really pissed me off just now..i was so willing to compromise just this once, but at the end of the day, this is wat i get..getting left out...yes yes, call me a tenant, cos im always not at home and all, but are u really going to make this joke real? so in time to come i must really pay u rent and get treated like a tenant? rawr..o wells...
yes u might say im the one that always go out before the sunrise and come home late late at night..yes i have trainings and sch stuffs to do...but do i not try to spend any other time i have at home? can't u see that i totally have no social life anymore?? can't u see me trying to balance everything?? haizz..i guess not...thats why the frequent scoldings and naggings...o wells...yes i was the one that din take care of myself ok? after camp, kena heat rash..after heat rash kena fever, then after race kena sore throat and cough and all and after 2 weeks still haven't recover is my fault ok? its just that im weak..everything is my fault...but i guess u guys dun really care as well...if it was someone else in this situtaion, i think you would be even more concerned than you are now..so whatever...why am i still trying so hard to please everyone except myself?? so in summary...im the one that deserves to be left out cos im not a good girl. ='(