Sunday, March 07, 2010
it was just the other day that daddy was saying that he gave me the chance but i din take it seriously...is all im capable of really just not taking things seriously and then regretting it?
i know im not good enough..i know i can't be like those ppl who play for mass and all..but i love playing it..even though im not as good as them...i really admire those ppl that can play for mass and play keyboard for pnw and all...sometimes i wonder if it was the wrong choice to stop piano when i entered poly...cos i ranked other things as more impt at that time..rawr...i din know i'll miss it so badly...rawrr...its not the first time i feel like that and i know its not going to be the last..rawrr...
and just now talking abit about choir with a friend makes me miss those sec sch days in choir too..i know im not a very good SL...but still...i miss choir..but now..choir..hm..singing...pitching..sight reading..aural..piano and all...haiz...i think i've lost the touch already....rawrr =(
really want to play the piano again...i really want to...i miss the times when i could just open up the piano and play when im stress or unhappy or happy or watsoever..i could just play it anytime i wanted...but now..i can't rawrr.....haiz...i guess its my fault that i din treasure wat i had in the beginning ba..or rather..i din see the importance of it in my life..i din see how dependent i was on it =( rawrrrrrr....its so frustrating when u wanna do sth but u can't..and if ur given the chance..u duno if u still can do it..cos its been so long..its been almost 2 years since i stopped piano i think...haiz.. =(