Sunday, February 07, 2010
when you call me, i'm happy
when you look at me, i'm happy
when you smile at me, i'm happy
when you start talking to me, i'm happy
when you give me a hug, i'm happy
when we have dinner together, i'm happy
in fact, just seeing you makes me smile too.
these simple things that you do make me happy but these things seldom happen i guess, and thats why i really treasure those times that it happens...somehow, i knew the truth of things, but i din want to face it. i knew that it was all my imagination. i knew that nth was going to work out. suddenly, reality strikes, and everything that i knew stood so clearly right in front of my eyes. the things that i never wanted to accept. the things that i wanna run away from. the things that i just dun want to believe. i may say one thing but inside of me, im thinking of the direct opposite.
it hurts, just being able to look from afar.
it hurts, knowing how much i dun know about you.
it hurts feeling like this and not being able to say it,
not being able to tell you,
not being able to act upon it
it hurts because there still is that bubble of hope that somehow i know i shld burst, but deep down inside of me, still wants to protect it.
so...just what am i thinking? just what am i feeling? just how can i get out of this?