Tuesday, January 05, 2010
hmm sch was abit better today..just that i din understand a thing during facc lecture as usual..rawrr i need to start putting in more effort..rawrr gosh...i feel so laggy..haha hmm RWPS just gave me more things to do..so yea..rawrr sorry to my grp mates...i'll need some time to consolidate the survey results...
after sch went for training...OMGGG I FEEL SO WEAK...the weights the rest of them are doing are so heavy and i can't handle..gosh...i guess this is the outcome of not training for 1 year..rawrr and not only does my weights sucks...incline, situps and pushups also suck like shit..damn it..rawrrrr i need to train more..rawrr even my running is quite buang now..rawrrrr ger ah ger..jia you ba!!
i guess today made me realise that i really need to put in alot more effort in everything im doing..be it studies, tuition or training..rawrrr i also realised that my mental strength also dropped alot..rawrr quite sad la..but i hope to get it back up again...rawrrr tired...im sure my muscles will ache like crazy tmr even though i've stretched so much..rawrr
haiz...i also realised that i have alot of mental barriers now which is no good...rawrr why can't i just do things with an open mind and stop restricting myself? it sucks to know that barrier exists, and can't exactly break it down haiz...disappointed with myself..just what has happened to me?? what happened to the ger that was so motivated last time? the ger that really gave her utmost best in every single thing no matter what the situation was? rawrr i want to find back that ger!!! =(