Sunday, November 22, 2009
i must say that i got the best sleep that i haven't gotten in days last night. even though it wasn't very long, but it was good...after putting down the phone last night...i said my night prayers and KO! i managed to sleep really well until this morning...and im quite happy about that even though i kinda wished i had a longer rest hahah but its ok..im thankful enough...
idk why but i think it was cos of prayer meet and also talking to A =). prayer meet was really nice. we all went to the adoration room together and its been so long since i went in there...i felt at peace in God's presence and i felt a sense of warmness as i spoke to him, and i guess, he helped me by creating an opportunity for me to speak to A last night.
somehow A managed to make me think on the right track...i guess the stuffs he says just hit straight at the point and the way he analyses the siutation is just wow! hmm...i guess i've learnt alot from A...esp from last time...and i felt so guilty when he went like " haha see la..last time tell u already u also didn't listen" so..A if you're reading this...I'M REALLY SORRY!!! i really regretted not listening to you..seriously...and im sure u know it..cos after i din listen to u last time..things got really bad...so yea...thanks for not giving up on me even though i didn't really listen to you totally last time...i really appreciate it when u said u'll call last night...cos its been quite long since i last spoke to u even though i do see u like every week?
i guess the most impt thing i've learnt from the past experience was that words are cheap...cos after that incident, i've been quite cautious and i dun fall for sweet talk that easily now...and A also said that its good and im right...and idk if im right but he sounded quite hmm relieve? or happy? that i actually remembered sth that he has been trying to tell me since last time...
words..anyone can say those stuffs but do they actually mean it? or are they just following a SOP? how do they feel when they say those stuffs? i guess when u say sth because u care and are concern about the other party and u say it from ur heart...the receiving party will be able to feel the emotions that come with it, no matter wat communication means u use...but the opp happens when ur just following SOP isn't it?
hmm..yea thats all for now...i'll blog more in detail later tonight i guess.....cos im going out to meet darling scandal now!!