Friday, November 06, 2009
i guess being in a r/s can be a very nice feeling...every girl wants to be in a r/s..every girl wants to have a guy that will love them for who they are...its freaking nice to be loved, and to have someone who will protect u and care for u...BUT if things dun go well...love hurts a lot...so i guess i'll say that love is like a double-edged sword...haiz...its really painful sometimes...
i dun think im ready for a r/s...i dun think i'll make a good gf...i dun think i can handle it...idk..sometimes there's this longing for someone special..but...i know its not the time now..studies is more impt for now...
i guess many a time, i find myself in situations that are very painful for some reason..situations that will make me go "idk idk idk"..situations that just makes me feel like crying and screaming it all out...this feeling sucks...because its happening too often..and i wonder why...why is everything coming all at once?? why is one thing coming one after another??I HATE THIS!! feel like crying now la..rawrrr although it won't help at all..haiz.
i think the feeling sucks more when u can't exactly tell ppl how ur feeling due to circumstances..rawrr idk idk idk...im so confussed i feel tears welling up in my eyes =( nono...ger can't cry...haiz...ger must be strong..rawrr..IDK IDK IDK..IDK WATS GOING ON =(
is it really so easy to walk in and out of my life? is it really so easy to treat me super nicely one day and the next treat me like dirt and pretend nth happened? is it so easy to treat me as toy and literally play and bully me then when u get bored u dumb me aside? do u know this feelling of getting thrown away sucks?? ='( maybe u won't know cos u've never been thrown away before i guess ='(