Saturday, October 10, 2009
met kor and xf at bedok interchange this morning and i was abit late...oops =x hahaha after that we bus-ed down to bedok reservoir to watch abit of sava sprints..hahha feels nice to be at a db race site again...rawrr kinda brings back memories...so..went to find kh and his gf then watched the guys set then went to say hi to the girls....well it was abit weird i guess...then after that watched one girls set...then after that went off with kor and xf to town...
bus-ed to tampines stn then trained to orchard...went to ion fish and co to eat lunch..haha kor treated =) it was a nice lunch with nice ppl hahaha =) thanks kor! after that went to walk walk around with xf for awhile while waiting for kor to bake cake hahhaa then xf went off to work, so me and kor con'd walking around...
bleah...i guess after today i can conclude that guys attitude to girls are all the same..bleahh idk if its a good thing or bad la...rawrr but idk leh..some stuffs that kor said made me think of someone because of the similarity i guess...and i really think kor needs a brain wash..he's imagination is seriosuly too good la...oh and kor kept bullying me with words..damn it la..rawrr one day..one day i'll succeed in wining him..hahahaa bleah..actually i got quite alot of stuffs to blog about..like i told kor!! but nvm i shall not go into the details and spoil my kor's reputation...hahhha kor must be thankful yea? hahha
hmm...seeing the girls row for the race earlier really brings back memories...bleah i really miss the sport!! i wanna go back to the team, but i guess its impossible cos of my parents and my own commitments i guess..and i guess things will just be different...rawrr politics and all..its just impossible for me to go back to that sport anymore =( but i really miss it!! bleahh...i wanted to blog about this in a less obvious way..but o wells..nvm can't think of how though..rawrr i kinda regret my decision back then...but i guess thats part and parcel of life...and thats sth i need to learn to accept - to accept the consequences of my actions and live with it and not keep looking back only to regret what i have done.
i guess i spent quite a long time deiciding if i wanted to go down today..but i was prepared to face a weird situation with the girls..somehow i knew the feeling will be different...because im also not very close to anyone of them...its a never was, never is and never will be kinda thing...rawrr eh i guess the only excpetion is rf..because thats a different case la..haha o wells..nvm...but yea...i was prepared..and what i imagined was wat really happened so yea..its ok..with this, im more than certain that its impossible for me to go back even though i love the sport...i guess things are different when u are in the team and when u are out of the team..i guess thats how team sports work...ppl always say "we always welcome u back if u wanna come back" but when u really want to and really do come back...there'll be different treatment..and the feeling is just different...i know i shld be saying these kinda things here...cos its a public blog and idk if my ex teammates are still reading...but if you girls are still reading..no offence yea..its just my thoughts and all....i stil love you girls..and i miss you all!!