lost and tired is how i've been feeling these days i guess...

its only the 2nd week of sch and im feeling so drained out for idk what reason...bleah..i dun like this feeling...my whole body feels so nuah and achy..its as if im going to fall ill soon, and i really dun want that to happen because i need to have enough energy to bring me through sch and work..bleah...

i guess im still trying to find myself..i feel like im no longer who i am..im so different since i started working and studying at the same time..rwarr where has the real ger went to? i dun like the way i am now...its like hmm idk...for example when doing project im no longer like before. my sense of timing sucks now...im like cramming everything at the last min. rawr i hate it..where has my leadership skills gone to? has it all disappeared because im too tired and drained out?? rawrr i need to find myself back...

im still lost on a certain matter..haiz..ger ah ger..stop thinking will u? why must u keep thinking? why must u let what others say affect u so much?why can't u just pretned that they din say anything?? rawrr learn your lesson please....

its so disappointing to know that im progressing so slowly and that it kinda brings me back to square 1 =( o wells....