Tuesday, September 29, 2009
basically today was just like any other ordinary day..just that it was really foggy here..its like after lessons when we were walking to the cafeteria..we couldn't even see that far la...we could only see a few meters ahead of us..it really felt like we were in the clouds!! hahaha but it was quite cool...nice weather..cold and windy..haha and there was this thunder warning thing..idk wat it is but yea..they made an announcement saying that we need to get indoors..haha so yea din run.din gym today..o wells..anyway i was feeling tired and lazy too...hahah
in the late afternoon shu yun came over to my room cos the rest weren't in..so yea.."studied" abit and then talked alot..haha well..shu yun if u read this...wat we talked about is a secret ok? haha then bathed then cooked dinner then slack and now im here..haha..idk why i feel so tired nowadays rawrr..but yea im tired but i need to study..bleah..im lagging behind alot i think...rawrr okok i shall try to study more..haha
hmm yea thats basically all for today i guess...haha lessons as usual tmr..then doing project i think...bleah...
to a certain someone:
idk if u still read my blog but if u do...change is not impossible but u have to want it..i know i told you this before. time and time again i've heard you say you want to change and you know you need to change but until now i still see no action. you taught me a really impt lesson, that is, words are cheap. anyone and everyone can say anything they like, even if they dun mean it, but how many ppl actually mean wat they say and act upon their words? well, to put it bluntly, you're one of those who does not even try to act upon your words. if u were to ask me, i am in fact very disappointed with you because i see no change at all..since you like numbers so much, i shall put a numerical figure here. i dun even see a 0.1% change.
i rmb i once told you that if you urself dun want to change, then no one can help you, because u will resist any help that anyone can give. i guess u still haven't want it enough because from what i see, there are people who want to help you, just that hmm maybe you just dun want it enough..that zeal to want to change is just not strong enough...
but i really hope u'll seriously act upon ur words and change because its really dreadful to keep seeing you say that you want to change when i see no action at all. i anticipate to see the change in you because i dun want you to continue hurting more and more girls..like what you said..you've hurt many already and i hope you don't continue to hurt even more innocent girls because its really painful...trust me..i've been through it and im sure u've been through it too so you shld know whats it like to be hurt by someone you really love...it hurts alot...
i hope that you'll change my thinking that you only use words and no action....
i think im taking too long ='( somehow it still kinda hurts to talk about it ='(