Sunday, August 09, 2009
i guess the way i've been living my life seems otherwise. i've been always hoping for things to go fine..hoping that i'll be able to live up to the expectations of others and myself. but, i'm not putting in enough effort i guess and then at the 11th hour, i start praying and seeking help from God. I start praying more than usual and all. But, why am i doing all these only at the 11th hour? aren't i supposed to maintain my prayer life in both good and bad times? i guess thats cos i'm always hoping that a magician will appear and just make sure everything goes well and good. but now, thats not what i want. what i want is not a magician. I need to change i need to change....
hmm....i have 2 more weeks...only 2 more weeks to make sure my effort for this semester pays off...i want to do well, even though this has been the WORST semester. seriously, i really want to end this semester as quickly as i can because it really sucks to the max!! rawrr although i dun have a good feeling about my exams, i'll still do my best and end this semester on a proper note, since the whole semester hasn't been good at all..