Sunday, August 30, 2009
after i read that sth...which i guess was cos i was too kpo...i guess i might have found the missing pieces to the puzzle i was trying to complete =( although im not sure if im right..because im just letting my imagination run wild and making wild guesses which i think makes some sense...
so...is that it? is that the reason why im getting the cold shoulder all of a sudden? like overnight kinda thing? i was really curious at that time..even though we dun really know each other that well..but during that short period, i thought we were getting to know each other better and then suddenly poof overnight all i got was coldness...and i've been wondering why...it has been bothering me..
i guess many times i've tested water and tried to make guesses..but i was not able to...yea i tested water and quite consistantly all i was doing was stepping into cold water...because our converstaions got shorter and shorter each day...you said that u weren't used to getting so many sms-es in a day..yea ok..that i know i was over doing it....rawrr u keep saying u were busy..but........haiz..nvm i know i shld not doubt u..cos i believe that ur really busy but somehow i feel its ur way of keeping a distance from me for idk wat reason... haiz..
idk if u'll read this..cos as u said.." nah..i've been really busy...i don't even read my best friend's blog now" so yea..its ok if u dun though..cos ur really busy...but if u do....yea...idk wat else to say...because i guess it was just wishful thinking on my part that i think u may or may not know but yea...haiz...ger sucks..thats all i'll say ='(
twice is enough...im really getting scared....i don't want to go through this all over again...i don't wanna lose anymore friends ='( even now, im still hesitating to publish this post...im afraid ...really afraid..but i guess the friends that will stay in my life will stay and those who are not meant to stay will one day leave..even as im saying this, it hurts..cos i really don't wanna lose anymore friends....haiz....