Sunday, July 05, 2009
when u need something ur nice and all but after that what do i get? cold treatment again? like what am i to you seriously? ya ur right..IM NOT A SUBSTITUTE...because i think now i've evolved to being a TOY!!! and it hurts..
to tell u the truth...on fri when u sms-ed me..i was really happy...but at night online..that conversation really made me...hmm idk..it was so cold...when i walked past u in skool..i was happy..happy to see u after so long..but i din noe how to react..maybe it din turn out properly...haiz..
i just dun understand why all these and whatever happened in the past..all seems to be my fault? its always like that and idk why..not once..not twice..but upteen times!!! im getting really irritated and pissed with myself...i told myself..i can't lose another friend already.i've lost enough already...and friends are really impt to me...but now..looks like im going to lose one more again ='(
i was scared..after i typed that sentence that day..i was really scared...and i guess..my nightmare came true...many times i've wondered...what if i din say that...what if i've just let things be as how it was...what if.............but i guess..what is done is already done..so..im sorry if it was harsh ='(
21 days of not going out with you....haiz ='(