Friday, July 10, 2009
idk how you are feeling now, but i know that you know i've been through a similar situation and you once told me that you could do the same (not talk to me after 2 years and then suddenly appear and talk to me as if nth happened). when u told me that at that time, i didn't take u seriously. But now, im starting to think if you're really seriouss about it. I guess its painful enough for me to know that my nightmare has come through, but even though i expected a day like this will come, idk why the taps are so easily unlocked. I wish it could be locked even tighter ='(
i know that you'll read this, and by me typing this, i guess somehow, you'll start to throw the ball into my court again, but all i could say, there's nth i can do about it, and i won't know how to reply you if u did that ='( but now i know, and im sure i've said this to you before, " now i know, how much i mean to you! i actually dun mean a thing to you right?" or maybe i do mean something to you, but i dun mean enough for you to treausre. I'm not that important. and like what you've said before, you can do without me!
yes, i finally see that you really meant it! like you always say, "the truth hurts" ='( yes, the truth hurts i agree, but i guess i've found out the truth. idk if its good or bad, but IT HURTS ALOT!!!! to know just how much i mean to you, because im sure all the things you miss, are memories of sec school, and nth more than that!!! ='(