Thursday, June 11, 2009
in times like this..i really hate myself...
i hate myself for not being able to let go..
i hate myself for not being able to say i forgive easily,
even though i know that me not doing it could be very costly.
i hate myself for always being the idiot that is clinging on so tightly.
i hate myself for always being so reliant on others
i hate myself for not being able to move on without letting the past affect me.
i hate myself for not being able to not hurt the ppl i care for,
the people who mean alot to me.
i hate myself for not knowing how to treasure what i have
i hate myself for not being able to control my emotions properly
i hate myself for always feeling insecure.
i hate myself for not being able to stand in the other person's shoes,
and think about how the other party feels.
i hate myself for not being the ger that i used to know,
because i feel that as each day passes, im losing myself more and more.
the person i see in the mirror, is becoming more and more stranger-like.
i hate myself for hating myself.