hmm i just had a very interesting and funny conversation with mr small eyes hahaha...tks mr small eyes...if u are reading this...i want u to know that u really made my day =) its been a super long time that i had such a funny convo...a convo that made me look like an idiot..laughing in front of the com...hahahah...it felt really good...during the time that we were chatting =))thanks alot mr small eyes =))
haiz..looks like in the end..no matter how much i expected this to happen...no matter how funny a convo i had with someone else before that....u still leave me in tears =(( no matter how many times i tell myself im not going to cry cos of this...i end up doing otherwise...haiz..i guess thats just me... i guess...this is ur way of marking the start of a painful process called letting go for me...i used to say that if you love someone, you dun need to have that person, instead, as long as that person is happy..thats enough...i guess its super easy to say...but its extremely difficult to act on it....well...since you marked the start of the process for me, i'll try to start acting on that sentence...
i hope at the end of all these, ger will become a stronger person..or rather..ger needs to stay strong during this process..ger must survive this torturous process!! 我不要让我的痛苦变成你的快乐! ger will try her best to stay as strong as possible during this time (when im typing this sentence..i have alot of dobt within me...idk if i'll survive..but i'll try...)i guess...this process will take quite a long time...haiz... 1 year? 2 years? idk...o wells...
i really hate it when things like that happen...3 years ago..i went through this process once...and now..i still have to go through it again..haiz..why must i be tortured this way? =(((
