Wednesday, May 13, 2009
hmm..in my opinion, now im not living my life like a catholic. Yes, i go to church every week, i pray regularly etc, but i feel sth is really lakcing. Something that i've been searching for is lacking, and until now, its still lacking. hmm, i just don't understand why i'm not acting like a catholic nowadays? i used to be able to, and its obvious, because i can see the difference quite clearly. hmm..is it because of that something that is lacking? is it because i'm not praying enough? or is it because i haven't been praying the right way? hmm..i guess, i've really drifted away quite far already. i need to get back on track. i want to draw nearer to God again. I want to have a strong spiritual life again. this feeling of emptiness, of something really impt lacking sucks. =(
Recently, i've been thinking what kind of friend am i. I don't know if i've been a good friend to my friends. sometimes, i just find myself sucky when it comes to friendship =(