Friday, May 29, 2009
why am i always the substitute? it has happened so many times in so many different cases and situations with so many different groups of people already. im sick and tired of it. im sick and tired of always being the substitute and being treated like a substitute. people using you for their own benefit then throwing you aside after they're done with it..or people who come to u when they got no one to go and look for, but when they have someone, they just throw you aside. =( this feeling sucks la..but i guess im used to it already. idk la..its just me to agree to go out with ppl if they ask me to pei them or sth..its just me to want to help ppl if they need my help or sth..idk idk its a ger thing..so by doing all these...am i being too nice such that people are taking advantage of? =((idk idk...haiz..hmm is this the reason why i sort of blew up today? is it because i've been bottling this feeling up for too long a time? a few years i shld say..hmm...idk..but sorry to the person whom i blew up at(its not ur fault..its mine in this case..sorry)
the one you think is the perfect one for you may not be the perfect one for you in God's eyes. What you want may not be what God has planned for you. what you think is good for you and therefore want it may not be seen as sth that will do good to you in God's eyes. or maybe, now's just not the right time. it may seem like a good chance or the right time, but its not the right time in God's eyes. God has a plan for each one of us. His plan for us, although unknown now, will slowly be unvailed bit by bit.