Saturday, May 23, 2009
I'M TIRED....i've been very tired recently idk why. haha hmm i think i need to start exercising again soon. i have the urge to get back my stamina. i wanna run and run and run and run wheeeeeeeeeee..hahahaha ok..need to act on it soon..
Dear Lord, i pray for the strength to be able to let go of this quickly. i pray that you'll help me to focus on my studies and not think about things that im not supposed to be thinking about. I pray that you'll fill this emptiness within me with your everlasting love. Lord, i also pray that you'll hold me in your arms and bring me through this period of time. Help me to get through this with your help. Amen.
this hurts alot...it really does...standing beside you knowing that its all over...standing beside you knowing you're not mine anymore....it really hurts me..its painful...trying to smile and be happy when its hurting inside is even more painful..i hope i can let go of this soon..but...i keep thinking of you..my whole mind is filled with thoughts about you..it just occured to me how much you meant to me..it just occured to me that we actually had quite a lot of memories together..it just occured to me how much i've been relying on you..so much such that now..im so lost and feeling so empty...every time i go to a place that we've been to together, i'll think of you and the stuffs we did there. i really miss those times...but i guess...what i can do is only to keep it in my memories and try not to think of it....this process really hurts alot...it hurts alot...=(( i guess i really need to find alot alot more things to do to keep my mind occupied so that i won't think so much. i guess i really need to tire myself out so much so that i won't have the energy to think so much..but...where to find so many things to do when i dun have a cca and im also not active in church? haiz..i was really happy last night...just so you know..i hope that answers your quesiton....