Thursday, April 09, 2009
i really miss my choir days. though it wasn't easy, but it was fulfilling. SYF's coming soon. i wonder how the juniors will do..hahha..quite interested to hear them sing =)
hnnm..ok on a different note, i guess its not easy to deal with a younger sibling sometimes. I guess, she's really testing my patience sometimes, but i feel, i shouldn't treat her so badly. i feel bad, seriously. Even though she gets on my nerves and dosen't want to listen to me or dosen't respect me whatsoever, i'll still try to be nice to her. i want to earn back the respect she once gave me. I want to earn her trust again. I want to strengthen the bond between us. I want her to know that she can count on me. I want to be someone whom she can turn to when she needs help or anything like that. I want to be someone whom she can trust. I want to be a good older sibling to her. one that she can be proud of and not embarassed to have. Its not going to be easy, but i'll try. i'll try my best! i hope things get better soon...
haiz..daddy was quite disappointed. i know he wanted me to be outstanding, but i guess, i didn't managed to do that. o wells. i'm really sorry daddy that i disappoint you time and time again. i'll continue to work hard though. i'll continue to give my very best in everything. i'll do whatever it takes to achieve my aim!! haiz..i wish i can do something that would make my parents proud. sometimes i wish my best would be enough, but up till today, i guess it really isn't =( maybe its really a sign that i'm not doing enough! haiz..o wells..