Saturday, April 11, 2009
hmm..i still wanna know whats missing, why do i feel this way..hmm..i guess it'll take some time for me to realise whats missing. Somehow, i miss hearing the nativity people read those readings. I miss auditions for easter vigil. I miss those training and practices. i miss the feeling on the day itself. i miss the company. hmm..is this the reason why i feel that something is missing? hmm..i don't know!!haiz..o wells o wells.
i really hate this feeling. i hate this feeling of emptiness and uncertainty. i want to fill up this gap quickly because this feeling is just terrible. hmm..is it because i don't have many friends in church? is it because i'm not in any group in church? haiz..i don't know i don't know...haiz..i wish i could know what path lies ahead of me..i wish i would know what to do..i wish i would have a solution as to how to fill up this emptiness...
Dear Lord, i pray that during this time, you'll show me the way, lead me and walk with me, so that i will not get lost. I pray that you help me find my place in church and help me settle down and fit in quickly. Lord, i also want to pray for a very special and important friend. I pray that you'll be with my friend till the very end. I pray that you will give her strength to be able to hold on till the very end. I pray that you will also grant her sufficient rest, so that she can recharge and prepare herself for the long road ahead. Please shower her with your blessings and your everlasting love. Amen.