Sunday, April 12, 2009
hmm..am i really stressing her out? i guess i have high hopes for her, even though i don't really show it. I want her to do well, although when she does well, i'm getting more pressure from others la. but the thing is, i want her to do well! Is it because i didn't do well last time, so now, i want her to do well so that she'll be able to go to a good school? Is it because i didn't manage to achieve my aim back then, so i'm pinning my hopes on her? gosh, is it all these thoughts that are giving her pressure because these thoughts leads to actions? haiz..if its really the case, then i'm at fault i guess. haiz..i will try not to give her pressure i guess, though i don't know how not to. I guess its just so me la. But i can see that she's alot like me, because of the way she's been pushing herself lately. She's really trying hard i can tell, but i guess, its not good enough, although its a good improvement from last year, but i guess, it can still be better.
gosh, this feels terrible. i don't know why. I guess, the more you care and love someone, the more terrible it'll feel, especially when that person tells you these things directly. argh..haiz o wells..i'll deal with it somehow...
and tmr is the start of freshmen orientation program(FOP). i hope it'll be good! i'm taking my direct junior class! i hope they'll be enthu bunch of ppl..i'm looking forward to meeting my freshies, its just that, one of them whom i supposed to call is still uncontactable since friday night! gosh! haiz..o wells! i hope tmr will be a great day and a great start of their poly life!