Friday, April 10, 2009
I guess, i need to learn to be more satisfied with what i have. I need to learn to be contented and not always seeking for more and more materialistic things. Yes, there are some things that i want because i used to have it and it means alot to me, but i have to understand that its not that if i want means i can have. I guess, since young, daddy and mummy have been trying to drill into me that i should not be so spendthrift, but only buy what i need and not what i want. Although i feel sometimes its ok to buy what i want but not overdo it.
hmm, somehow today, i felt a kind of love and care that i never once felt. Somehow i felt like hey, actually they've been there for me all the while, just that they show it through different ways. I guess the problem lies with me again. I need to be more observent and sometimes slow down and listen to what my loved ones have to say. Sometimes, i guess, i'm moving too quickly, and hence i don't manage to feel the feelings that they are giving me. haiz, so its my fault again...o wells..but i'm glad i realised this and i'll try to improve myself. Although sometimes things are not that pleasant, but i guess its all part and parcel of life. o wells...hm..even though i'm saying all these, it seems like things will get better soon, but somehow it dosen't seem that way. i guess, there's still a long way to go, but maybe by realising this, i'll be able to take a postive step forward. hmm whatever the case, i'll have to take it as it comes. o wells