Tuesday, March 03, 2009
so tmr its an early day for me. I guess its going to be kind of tiring, but its ok, i'll endure no matter what happens. But I pray that all will go well.
I know i shouldn't be saying what i want to say now, but i guess i need somewhere to let it out, so i'll try to make it not so direct, but i guess there will still be some people who knows what exactly i'm talking about.so yea.
hmm...i thought that things will get better if i give it more time. I thought time can heal the wounds, but I guess I'm really wrong. I think i've said this quite a number of times already, but each time, I tell myself to give it more time. Maybe I'm too impatient, or maybe it really won't get better, because the hurt was just so great. But the thing is, is it only precious to me? is it only one-sided? is it only me that wants things to get better? these questions have been inside of me since the very beginning, and even though so much time has passed already, I still don't know the answer. hmm ok people who know about this may think that this is not true, but the thing is, i keep convincing myself that its because the other party is busy and all, but is it really true? or am i just living in self-denial? i don't know if whoever is involved is reading this, but i know in the past, the person/people invovled will read it, but now, i have no idea. I'm really wondering if what a certain someone said is true. That someone asked me to let go, because now there's nth in common already. I tried, but until now, i still can't let go. i don't know whats with me, but all i know is this means alot to me, and if the person/people invovled reads this, i hope you'll not run away from it anymore, and tell me honestly, so i would know what to do from now on.