Monday, March 09, 2009
hmm..i feel that God has been sending people to help me when i need them. I must admit, these people really appear at the right time. Seriously, its like really nice. When i'm lost and i don't know what to do or how to get a certain task done, these people never fail to appear. It is thanks to them that i've learnt quite a bit. Somehow, I feel that God is using these people to protect me. Meeting this people is really nice =) really must thank God for them for i feel that these small little things cannot be taken for granted. I guess it is when you're lost and all alone and there's no one there to help you, that you really know how to appreciate the help of others when you are in need of it.
I guess its because i've been lost and all alone before, so this time, i really really appreciate these people. In the past, I used to take these small little things for granted, but now, its different. At first, when these people started appearing, I didn't think much about it, but as the days go by, it kind of got me thinking, because it has been many times that they appear to help me. So, i concluded that God is using them to help me, I guess, he does things through different ways and uses different people as his instruments to help others.
ok..enough about that. Hmm..i guess the other stuffs i'll blog about it another time..i'm really tired now, and i can't really think properly. Oh ya and i conclude that if you talk to me after 12.30am, you'll find yourself having to repeat the same thing many times before i know what you're talking about(eh i mean when talking face to face) and i'll take some time to reply you hahahaha. alright..so now is like 1:46am so..if you didn't understand what i wrote above, i guess its not your problem. its mine..hehe..
why are you always treating me like your substitute? do you know what it feels like to be treated as someone's spare tyre? when you have no one to talk to, no one to message, to one to call, no one to help you pass time, you look for me. Even though i gladly talk to you, but that feeling really sucks because when you have other friends to entertain you and i talk to you, you're replies are super super short and super conversation stopper. sometimes i want to rant to you about stuffs, but i can't because of the way you reply. when u complain to me, i try to see things from your point of view and try to understand your situation, but why can't you just say something of more concern. I know you know that something is bothering me when i chat with you because they way i chat is different, but you don't even ask. Alright, you might say its none of your business and all, but....haiz..you can't say we weren't ever close right? although we haven't spoken for some time we started talking again recently. Late night phone calls, sms-es etc. When you did all that, did you really think of me as your substitute? sometimes i really wonder what is wrong with me you know. haiz o wells..i don't know what else to say.