Sunday, February 01, 2009
thats what daddy told me this morning. Its not that i didn't want to continue learning, i decided to stop because i didn't have a piano, and its very costly to go elsewhere to rent a piano to practice. i can't afford to spend that kind of money each week on top of the monthly piano fees. its going to be very taxing on mama and papa, so i deicded to stop, but i used school commitments as an excuse 9mths ago, beccause i didn't know how to explain my real reason for wanting to stop lessons. So, all these time, my passion for music didn't die, in fact, i think my passion for it grew stronger.
daddy also sasid that even if we move house, i won't get a piano of my own still. when i heard that sentence, my whole heart sank. i'm super sad la =( i used to vent my frustrations, my sadness, my anger, and all my other emotions all on my piano last time(eh not by banging la..juz by playing pieces that suit my mood), but now that i don't have a piano, it feels terrible, i have no where to let it all out. when exams are nearing, and during exam periods, i'll play the piano every single day to destress,but now, i can't. it feels super terrible. yes, i was never good at playing the piano. i'm not pro like some of my friends, but this means alot to me. i really want to play the piano again. i want to improve my music sense. i want to be able to play the piano freely at any time of the day. i want a piano of my own. (but i know, i won't be able to have one of my own anymore) i should have treasured my piano more last time.
haiz o wells, like i told rf just now, i really wish that somehow a good piano will walk into my house and it'll become mine, then i'll take super good care of it, i'll take care of it like my baby. haiz..if only that can happen. haiz..looks like i'm hoping for the impossible.
super duper sian. i've always held on to a glimer of hope, that i may get a piano when we move house, but today, that little hope of mine, is gone. so to maureen mei and all those who have the privillage of learning piano or any musical instrument, i hope all of you will treasure this opportunity, and don't take it for granted, because once this chance is gone, you might not get a second one.