Saturday, January 17, 2009
haiz..now i think only one particular person can help me...only scandal knows who that person is...only scandal and no one knows...but the thing is...that person isn't appearing..argh..why dun the right person appear at the right time?
o wells..but i guess its juz me...too competitive...i always want to be the best...probably of my environment ba...
haiz..competitve ppl can be selfish alot of times..and gets jealous easily too...
argh...sick again...i feel so weak all of a sudden...i feel im nothing now..and i have nth too...argh...emo emo =( i guess without God im really nth..
omg can u juz faster appear and help me?!?!?!?
ahhh i can't take it anymore..i duno if im trying too hard..but i can't let go at this time...i can't...i need to endure and perservere to the very end..i need to be determined..i muz achieve sth for i've given up alot and lost alot of things already..so the only thing i have now...is the chance to well in studies...i need to grab hold of this chance...
Lord, i lift up my life to you...i give u my everything...use me as ur instrument lord...to reach out to those in need...but first lord..heal me..heal my wounded heart and brighten and liven up my drooping spirit...lord, i really need you by my side...walk with me..take my hand and lead me along the right path...i really need you...for without you im really nth..
i feel like im always a substitue that no one cares about..when no one is there then ppl come and find me..when they got other friends..they juz kick me to one side...wth =(((