Tuesday, December 16, 2008
i guess consistancy is the most important to keep anything in life in place...if one is not consistant in studies...grades start falling or things start to gets messy...in a friendship....if there's no consistant contact with the other party...both parties will loose contact with each other....but the thing is...consistancy is very hard to manage....its not easy to be consistant all the time...tats why...as time pass by..u'll realise that things change and people change and the only thing that is constant in this world is change...how scary...wat if one wakes up one day and not reconigze anything around them because everything has changed so much juz in one night? its really scary...(ok tats not possbile..but its juz an analogy)
i guess because of the lack of consistancy..some people that have entered my life some time ago may have changed so much that i no longer know them...they might have changed into a totally new person...for the better or the worst i won't know...because change is only moving towards the future...there's no turning back of time when changes are involved...once sth or someone has changed...its a fact to accept..
eh i duno if u ppl out there understood wat im trying to convey..but o wells...its ok..i was juz trying not to make things too obvious here in case i offend anyone out there so yea...
haiz..o wells...
i've been feeling kinda empty these days..duno why...there's this feeling that something's missing in my life...but i duno wat it is....feeling kinda down though...even though i try my best to put on a happy face....the feeling inside me dosen't match my expression...i no longer know what does it feel like to be truely happy...even though im smiling or laughing...i juz dun feel the same kind of happiness i used to feel in the past..and i duno why..it feels terrible when im trying so hard to be happy but its juz not working...instead of me feeling truely happy..the opposite occurs...=(