Monday, November 10, 2008
now in skool having ITAB lesson...later need to do MOB project then meeting Rf and sharron later haha...
sian im totally lost in ITAB lesson...i duno how to use access at all!!! ahhhhh die...
ok..so i have nth much to blog about...juz tat these few weeks will be very hectic for me..i need energy i need strength i need to be able to hang on till the very end..i can't let go at this time...2 more weeks to regatta...i need to get my form back again...i think i've reached trashhole in trainings now...i need to reach my peak again...i need to be at my peak during regatta!!! lai ger muz get tat feel back again!!!!
i really hope i can do it..after training for so long..i can't let my team down..i can't pull them down...i really need to get my feel back again..need to be in top form for regatta!!!!!!!
im very stress now...so much to do in so little time....projects...tests...work to catch up on!!! ahhhhh argh i feel so lost in my studies now!!! i wonder how my friends cope..argh..freaking stress !!!
ahhhhh ok i need to pull myself together to complete my work!!! kinda worn out already...i go to skool each day with not enough sleep...and i think im spreading ymself quite thinly..i think mummy and daddy is also not happy liao...they think im not putting enough effort on my studies..
i need to prove to them i tat handle..ahhh can i do it?
somtimes i really feel like giving up...im juz so tired...many times i feel i can't carry on anymore...there's juz so many factors affecting me....im so afraid the string im hanging on will snap...somteimes i really wonder if i can really do it...can i really reach my peak? can i really do well in mst? can i really catch up with my studes properly? can i finish my projects on time? i really duno...i've been living the past few weeks with alot of questions and uncertainty...i duno why im doubting myself so much now...maybe its because i've never been as stress as this before..even during Os...or during the period before elementz...i was never as stress as this...argh...no wonder im so worried....cos at those periods i was already almost at my breaking point..then how bout now? will i survive? or will i juz give up on some aspects tat im not supposed to? argh yesterday when i was with my team mates...i din feel relaxed and carefree at all...i was still feeling stress...argh...usually when im with them...i'll not think of my problems or wat...but yesterday was different..o wells..nvm..argh...