Wednesday, October 15, 2008
i've been thinking just now about how training has been for me so far...alright...i duno la..but i think im one of the weakest in the team...i've been thinking why the rest of my team mates can do waist support pull ups and i can't...is it because i lack mental strength? is it because i dun have enough confidence in myself that i can do it? u noe..every training..i fear doing pull ups..because i juz feel i can't do it..i have no idea why...
every training, seeing my team mates doing waist support pull ups make me feel damn terrible..i wanna be like them..i wanna do waist support pull ups properly too...but why can't i do it? now..even during weights training...i feel im using my back muscle also for like biceps which is like wrong...argh..whats happening to me? why am i not getting stronger? wth wth wth wth im freaking pissed off with myself when i think of this la...super disappointing..o wells...(is it because of the seniors? is it cos im afraid the seniors will keep rushing us to finish up so i juz wanna quickly finish up also?)
i duno why..but i really hope to have better mental strength and more confidence in myself...