Monday, September 29, 2008
went back to nativity after like quite a few months. i noe i've mia-ed for a long time.i guess its God's plan ba, because he creating an oppotunity for me to take the first step to return back to serve him. its been quite some time liao. i really miss the church ppl alot. so i went to facil for the sec 2 one day retreat. actually supposed to facil with seb soon de, but then susanna said she needed to leave early so i facil with her. sry arh seb. hmm, so we had ice breakers, then session by bro nic, then lunch, then session by clare and ben, then games. session by bro nic was good. one sentence he said struck me, he said, sth like friends made in church are different from those u make outside of church. it really got me thinking because i think its really true. ok i shall not like write my thoughts about this now, maybe in another post i will ba. ok so after games ended susanna and chris had to go off and they happened to be going to somewhere around my area haha so i shared cab with them hehe...so which means to say i left early too.
after tat in the evening, i talked to scandal on the phone. sry dear if i said things tat u din want to noe tat point of time. im really sorry. i guess we shldn't have had that conversation. i hope u do well for promos yea? jia you k? u can do it de!!!! jia you jia you
alright after tat was watching f1 here and there la...nth much la..haha not tat interesting...
Today
had training in the morning and the weather was super hot. we rowed 10km again. i guess i did better than the last time. good job to everyone too! haha at least i managed to endure thoughout the whole thing. after tat, i thought i could join my team mates for lunch, but ended up i went home instead. haha one reason is to walk with ruifang to the mrt stn (but tat is not the main reason) the main reason is caused, i feel im needed at home. so yea..like they said, i muz get my priorities right sometimes. so yea...o wells..nvm....
so thats like wat i did yesterday and today haha...lately i've been thinking alot about some stuffs. i don't know if im doing the right thing. i duno if i shld listen to my parents instead of trying to prove them wrong on this matter, cos at the end of the day, their logic makes some sense. but i dun think i can stand on their side for now. i can't let go now, but by having these thoughts, it makes things worst, im not as happy as before, even if im smiling or laughing, am i truely happy on the inside? doing all these things...wat will i get? where will it lead me? will it benefit my future in any way?
when will u make the first move to call me or start a conversation with me? can't u see im patiently waiting? can't u feel that i want to talk to u? can't u sense tat each time i say im fine, im not? i guess u can't do all tat anymore, cos we are not at all close liao. it seems like it has ended but deep down inside me, i strongly believe it hasn't, becuase," friends made in church are different from those made outside of church" do u get wat i mean?!?!