Monday, September 08, 2008
is one really replacable so easily?
does one really have to talk alot or make alot of noise to be remembered?
does one have to do great things to make an impact?
does one need to follow the crowd in order not to left out?
i duno why suddenly all these questions juz came to my mind...these are juz a few..lazy to type out the rest...even though i always say no one is irreplacable, the truth is...i dun believe it actually...i've only be using this as an excuse at times(if if have told u this before...now u noe how i really feel)
i guess my parents have stated their stand and tats why i've been thinking quite abit last night and today...how i wish life was simpler with lesser commitments or i wish that i could see the path ahead of me more clearly...now..im like in a room of darkness and every step forward i take, i take it cautiously...carefully and worriedly..worried that there may be some trap or sth...worried tat i may be stuck in a crossroad and not knowing which path to take...i really want to see the path ahead of me more clearly...
many a times..ppl say go with wat u want or wat u think is right...but now at this moment...i duno wat i want and what i think is right may not be right in the eyes of God....i thought i was able to move on with my current life and like not look back again..but now..after my parents voiced their opinions...i duno wat to do..argh...i noe many ppl have similar opinions or rather same opinion with my parents but....can i really do it? can i handle wat im going to commit to? i really duno
dear lord,
im very lost now...im like stuck at a crossroad again...like wats new right? i really need your help to make a decision that is pleasing to u...please grant me wisdom to be able to choose the right path to walk on for i dun want to trip and fall again...please guide me though this decision making process...be beside me to hold my hand..give me the courage to take the next step forward...give me courage to face watever challenges and obstacles i have to face after i've made the decision...lord, please guide me and be with me...i believe that u will be with me through it all. amen.