Monday, July 07, 2008
its raining now and i dun tink im going for sports elective later cos i dun wanna waste time waiting for them to say its cancelled...i dun tink i'll go for sports elective already cos next week i also cannot make it..o wells...
like i told scandal...since poly started i've started to doubt my own capabilities..i came in with so much hopes and aims and all..but i tink my life is getting more disorgaized as each day passes...i duno la..but maybe i expected too much of myself and i overestimated myself...i duno if im really tat capabale....i feel terrible..cos im not able to even balance the activities tat i have on hand..i juz wish tat things will get better...
scandal says its maybe cos im not making use of my time wisely..i tink she's right...but i duno la..juz can't seem to not use the com at night..i noe i can always use tat time to study and all..but sometimes i juz need a break...maybe cos im too slow in finishing stuffs so ya lor...haiz...i really think i have no life le..le im dedicating all my time to doing my work and dragon boating..ok im not ocmplaining..but i really duno if wat im doing is right..
i wanted to make a finalise decision last night but i guess i'll need more time..i need to give myself more time to think it over...i noe scandal wants me to hang on..i can tell from the tone she chatted with me last night even though she said is really up to me..sry dear i dun want to make u sad...so i'll really think it over again...